I belong to Jesus. I am His for the saving and He is mine for the keeping.

Reading Crazy Love, I realized what I have to do if I don't want to spend eternal misery in fire with the one thing I am scared of the most. I can't rely on my words to get me into heaven. I can't say I just believe in God, and then I'm welcomed into eternal paradise with the Creator of the universe, of Heaven and Hell.

You can easily try to prove me wrong and point to John 3:16 where it clearly states that if you believe in Him, you will not perish but have everlasting life. But turn a second to James 2:19 where it says, "You believe in one God. Good! Even the demons believe that-and shudder." (NIV)

The Bible in some ways can be one giant contradiction. But I don't believe that is an example. In John 3:16 it says if you believe in Him, you will spend forever with Him. But wouldn't it make sense that if you really believe in Him, you'd act like you do? You'd have real faith and sacrifice everything for Him, to spend forever with Him? There's more to believing in God than just saying you do. God clearly calls us to be a spreader of the gospel, a comforter, a helper, and a hope for the world. Matthew 5:13 says that we are the light of the world. If we really believe in Him, don't you think we'd act as the light of the world?

After reading Crazy Love, I'm not being scared away by the gospel. I'm supposed to drop everything, to leave everything to follow Jesus. I'm supposed to give freely, I'm supposed to be a messenger of Christ. And that's what I'm striving for. Because one day I want to feel like I can be worthy enough to enter into the gates of heaven.

I can see God is planning something awesome for my life. I mean, if I'm not dead yet, I must still be here for something. God is going to use me for great purposes. It might not be spending years as a missionary in a dangerous country and getting martyred, but it'll be something because I believe in Jesus.

I always hated the question why I believe in Jesus. Because I was raised that way? That's the way I was taught in school? Because of my parents? Or because the world is so beautiful and I know it's His creation?
Aren't those the typical answers? I've always wanted something real to answer that question with. Something that should be made known.
Maybe I don't have that real answer yet for me, but at least I have another one.

I believe in Jesus because of his effect on the world. You could argue with me and say that the world is being corrupted and turning away from Jesus and our nation is turning away from its Christian foundation, but then again, every day someone is getting saved. I believe in Him because I've never heard of someone having a life altering experience through Buddha's name. Maybe it's just because I'm not a Buddhist but I've never seen miracles happen to hopeless people through Buddha. God shows us His existence when some dirty, filthy sinner like one of us changes his life by sitting in a pew listening to an old preacher. Because honestly, you can make Christianity sound pretty dumb. I mean some magic baby being born from a virgin, dying, and coming back to life like a zombie. To me it all makes perfect sense because it's what I was raised with, and what I've always been taught. But think of someone who was raised in a pagan home, heard that and then completely changed his life. I believe in Jesus because of people like that. For people Like C.S. Lewis who was once a Satanist but now famous for being a Christian author. I believe in Jesus because I can feel Him with me all the time, telling me what to do; because He turns the pagan's life around by listening to crazy stories from random people.

My life belongs to Jesus.